Meet me in the woods…

” I took a little journey to the unknown
And I come back changed, I can feel it in my bones
I fucked with the forces that our eyes can’t see
Now the darkness got a hold on me
Holy darkness got a hold on me “

– Lord Huron (Meet me in the Woods)

As Summer begins in Upstate, I can feel an electric charge in the air. The rains some and the wind whispers time for change as they take leave. The Summer Solstice came and went and while I meant to celebrate it in some way – the day passed by without any kind of fan fair.

No bonfires yet this summer, although I always associate those more with Fall. Summers are for water, and fruit bowls and lemonade. Music is making it’s way back into my life, specifically in the form of the Lumineers, X Ambassadors, Lord Huron and The Revivalists.

Part of me feels like life is moving all around me and I’m sitting in the middle, or maybe even in the background observing it. I don’t feel depressed any more – I’m actually pretty happy! But life is just moving around me and I’m standing still. I’m not sure what to make of it so I guess I’ll continue watching for now.

Anyway, that’s enough non-nonsensical talk for now. Day ???. Post 2.


Oneida Lake at Sunset
Life · Self-reflection · Uncategorized

November 2018

When I was in high school, I wrote nearly every day in my LiveJournal.  Sure, I might have changed accounts over the years but even now I can go back to that original journal and all the memories come flooding back – good and bad.

Back then, every post title was a line from a song I was listening to.  I still remember my favorite line from just about any song.  It was by the Ataris, called Takeoffs and Landings.

“The runway lights are the deepest blue like the colors of your eyes…”

That song to this day is still one of my favorite songs.

But every time I hear it, I’m sucked into looking at all of those journal entries and it takes me back to a really tough part of my life.   Bittersweet memories mixed with how naive I was.

There are times that I wish I could reach back and comment to old Bess.  “It gets better – you don’t have a limit of 5 boyfriends max for your life.”  or “This too shall pass” or probably the most important: “In all things, be kind” and to not be such a depressed ball of fluff.

In any case, I’m trying to get back into writing more than only writing with a purpose.

Day 1.  Post 1. Done.

I guess when it comes down to it
Being Grown Up – Isn’t half as fun as growing Up
These are the best days of our lives

The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
and eventually – you’ll finally get it right.


Upcoming recipes

As soon as I get a chance I’d like to type up a recipe I made this week, a couple actually.  This weekend I made a vegetarian Lasagna – sauce from scratch for the first time ever! But I was able to use my vegetable mixture in another recipe as well.  Today I might attempt to make those Broccoli Cheese pizza rolls, we’ll see.  Work’s been crazy this past week and it means I’m pretty much snoozing my days away after I do my Zumba Fitness when I get home in the mornings.

Happy Eating everybody!



All the miles that separate…they disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face…

The first week back from vacation is a rough one in general but as a third shift worker it sucks. It’s been almost a year since I switched to overnights at work and my body has still yet to adapt to being awake when the sun goes down. At the same time however, it refuses to sleep much at night so I feel as though my life is one big stretch of catnaps.

I got home a week ago from my most recent trip to Saugus, MA. Feels like forever ago now.  I don’t think I’ll be able to get back there until September or October this year…might try to save up for both of those months.    Had so much fun this trip.  Spent my birthday going out and having fun for the first time since I was a teenager.   Got to see Jarred for almost a week, that alone made the vacation something that was much needed.  Spent my 26th Birthday playing mini golf and laughing with my friends John, Ryan, Sean, Jen and Jarred. After all our hard work golfing we went go kart racing and got ice cream.   We went to a bar called the Brown Jug, which I believe has pretty much become the birthday bar.  Overall the day was amazing for me.  Thai Food, Pizza, Ice Cream, Mini Golf, Alcohol that tastes like fruit punch, friends and snuggles.  Can’t ask for much more.  My mom, bless her heart, ordered me a cake from a bakery near my hotel. It was amazing.  Cakes for Occasions you out did yourselves!

We went into Boston on the 19th and went to the New England Aquarium, almost had the chance to touch some Rays and Non-violent Sharks!  We saw a 3D IMAX film on the struggle for Polar bears and other life in the Arctic.  After the Aquarium we had dinner at Cheers which was delicious.  They have a cranberry mayonnaise that will make the meal all in itself, but the Boston Baked Beans and any of the sandwiches are probably some of the best I’ve had.  Jarred got the eNORMous burger and I can’t even begin to describe how huge it was.  I had Sam’s Turkey Sandwich and it was hands down the best Turkey sandwich I’ve ever had, perfect ratio of mayo to sandwich and not too much of anything.  I’m not embarrassed to say I ate the whole thing.  We then met up with Ryan, Jen and John at O’Briens a bar in Saugus.  There was a band Free Reign playing there – they opened with Bush, and went on to play STP and so many other good covers.  We got probably the cheesiest pizza I’ve ever seen, which was kind of “Eh” at best, but I ordered loaded nachos and when merged with the pizza I was told it was fantastic.

I honestly don’t think I could have asked for a better birthday vacation.  I had so much fun with my friends and especially Jarred, a lot of good times I’ll never forget.  This took way too long to post…I’ve been going through a pretty rough week but I wanted to get this out today so I could move on to some other stuff that’s been fluttering about my head.