When I was in high school, I wrote nearly every day in my LiveJournal. Sure, I might have changed accounts over the years but even now I can go back to that original journal and all the memories come flooding back – good and bad.
Back then, every post title was a line from a song I was listening to. I still remember my favorite line from just about any song. It was by the Ataris, called Takeoffs and Landings.
“The runway lights are the deepest blue like the colors of your eyes…”
That song to this day is still one of my favorite songs.
But every time I hear it, I’m sucked into looking at all of those journal entries and it takes me back to a really tough part of my life. Bittersweet memories mixed with how naive I was.
There are times that I wish I could reach back and comment to old Bess. “It gets better – you don’t have a limit of 5 boyfriends max for your life.” or “This too shall pass” or probably the most important: “In all things, be kind” and to not be such a depressed ball of fluff.
In any case, I’m trying to get back into writing more than only writing with a purpose.
Day 1. Post 1. Done.
I guess when it comes down to it
Being Grown Up – Isn’t half as fun as growing Up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
and eventually – you’ll finally get it right.
Lots of changes since I last wrote – I’m not even sure where to start so I’m just going to jump in!
On Christmas Eve 2015 – J proposed to me by hiding a tiny engagement ring set box in our Christmas tree. We originally were aiming to get married in September 2016 – however, as it does – life got in the way. We instead set a date for September 16, 2017 and began making the wedding planning process.
What a process. Because going to school, planning a wedding and working full time wasn’t enough – in August 2016 we put an offer on our first house! After what I can only describe as the most complicated and stressful experience of my life (including any event related to the wedding) we closed on our home in January 2017. There’s been a fair share of complications with the house over the past year but we love it there.
On September 16, 2017 we came Mr. & Mrs. Glazer – while I haven’t officially changed my name anywhere – life has been too busy – I will be. That being said it’s been a struggle to decide to keep Lyon in some way – would I like to by Lyon Glazer? That being said, I’ve always disliked the idea of using a hyphen in my name – though I understand the concept and respect and even like other names hyphenated – I just don’t like it with mine.
On a side note, this new last name has altered the symmetry of my name and I haven’t quite come to terms with it yet. For all 31 years of my life so far – my first and last name have had 4 letters. Short – Crisp and sweet. Now I’ve got 2 extra letters at the end and it throws me off a bit.
We went to Iceland on our Honeymoon. I’d visited the country the previous year with my mom and knew it would be the perfect place to bring Jarred. Brisk weather, waterfalls and ocean winds no matter where you go, and amazing food. Not to mention the amazing history packed into a small but incredibly welcoming country.
I’m no longer working at the Sheriff’s Office. I miss it – fond memories of my first non-retail/food service job! I miss the office itself – and how mismatched all the rooms were – even the cash register that was older than dirt. I miss the coworkers – the parties – even the public. But life moves forward and we all march on behind it. I work in the finance department of the city School District now. It’s a quiet office – which took some getting used to, but I like it here too. It’s nice to see everything from the other point of few – at the Sheriff’s Office I think technically I worked more along the Accounts Receivables line of work, while at the School District I work in Payables so it’s nice to have a grasp on both ends of a system.
I’ve taken a break from school for a while and it’s about time I get back into it – given my current line of work I’ve been strongly thinking of changing my major to have something to do with accounting or finance rather than English. that being said – I love my English major and don’t really want to let it go.
Lots of other developments in life as well – but I’ll save those for another post!
P.S. Wedding Photos taken by Amanda Petrie – amazing photographer!
I remember leaving home to move to California, when I saw my father for the last time before my flight, he gave me this long bear hug. It was one of those hugs that had every pep-talk he’d ever given me, every comforting moment after something didn’t go my way, every possible dad moment all combined into one hug, just in case that was the last hug he’d ever give me. All of this was unspoken mind you, but it was one of those things you could just feel. Now that I’ve moved back home, but he’s moved away, whenever we part, we give each other one of those hugs. Just in case. You never realize how much distance can affect you and your relationships. In a lot of ways it brings you closer – makes you appreciate what time you have with somebody that much more. Sometimes it feels like you’ve drifted apart when really you just weren’t giving each other time to grow and become the person you’re meant to be.
Some of my most memorable moments in life have happened when I’ve taken a leap of faith and done something I never thought would work out. A magical night of carefree happiness in a Gone Surfing parking lot. Hot Cocoa and fresh doughnuts on Pier 39. Several tearful goodbyes at the Syracuse Transportation train platform that involved wishes on fluffs and pinky swears. A kiss under Niagara Falls, dancing the night away in a Danish disco, a night of cobblestone streets and roller skating in Montreal, and taking pictures of the Chicago skyline and exploring the magical qualities of Navy Pier at Night.
Now, I’m headed to Boston, MA, and I have no idea what the next couple days have in store, but I can already tell this is one of those trips that’s going to be filled with those types of moments and I can’t wait to see what comes next.